"This time the girl is going to stay..."

I am who I thought I was, but kept talking myself out of believing it.

Here Comes the Sun

Reading the GLOSSARY of "The Mayan Factor: The Path Beyond Technology", by Dr. Arguelles, is like reading the code book for virtually ALL of MY ART. I have always, always wondered what I was doing and why I was doing it. Now I definitely know. All of my doubts about 2012 have been erased. The Ahau Kines are very busy with me today! I took one long, last look at materialism over the week-end and rejected all of it. The veil of illusion has been rent and I see Huyub Caan It's about time. Duh.

Perry Lane

I was freaked out to see the little house I lived in was the same one were Ken Kesey lived. This is on the infamous Perry Lane where the Merry Pranksters gathered before their cross-country trip in the phychedelic bus, "Further", which Tom Wolfe wrote about in the "Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test". The atmosphere was ripe. It's up behind Stanford in Menlo Park.

He moved in right after I moved out. Trippy!

Atlantis Rising

I think everyone likes pictures. They look especially nice with the black background. Today all my arrogance and hubris has been squelched by the universe. I don't mind. I need constant pruning because I'm a wild one. I call this picture "Atlantis Rising". I forgot why. Hope you like it.

That's What I'm Talkin' About!

It was storming today, but when I turned a corner on my way to the store, a huge full rainbow appeared at the exact moment that Israel Kamakawiwo'ole began to sing "Somewhere Over the Rainbow". My days are filled with such streams of pure joy. I'm just saying...

This artwork is a type of healing painting I did in 2007 called a "White Tara" and must be completed within 24 hours. It worked. Zachary recovered! I'm sure some good doctors helped, also!

More About What Love Is Not

"Romance " is not love. Romance is generally understood to derive from medieval verse and bears the idea of fantasy. It has nothing to do with successful daily living. It is not practical. "Practical" sounds very boring, but here's the kicker; if we can train ourselves away from all forms of escape, such as "romance", on a daily basis, we can experience a sort of constant "high"__almost like a steady orgasm. Really. This painting is of the Los Gatos Trail near our house.

What Love Is Not

Blogs are a medium for expressing our opinions. Everything I write is simply that and no more. Since it's Valentine's Day (read: another excuse to spend money on unnecessary, unwanted and usually unhealthy items. ). Human LOVE IS NOT A FEELING, it is ACTION. When we love someone we DO something to help make their life fuller and richer. We ENCOURAGE them to seek their own dreams and honor themselves. We DEMONSTRATE to them, through our own actions, how to take care of THEMSELVES. We SHOW them how we have achieved our own goals. We don't relieve them of their responsibilities. We don't create burdens for them by allowing ourselves to become ill and needy. WE DON'T CO-SIGN THEIR BULLSHIT. We don't look the other way when they are hurting themselves or someone else. Human love is HARD, HARD WORK. It's not the same as the love of animals (or insects!). The difference is that human beings have choices__animals don't. I choose to love YOU today by managing my time and energy (they are the ONLY resources I really own) so that I can take the time to sit down and write. All I ever wanted to do was to do art and write. I spend about %70 percent of my waking time doing those two things. Oh yeah, BTW, what most folks call LOVE is really just a burning desire for good hot sex. Nothing wrong with that, but it ain't love.

Not An Elephant Seal, But...

A strange thing happened to me after watching that great video of the woman and the elephant seal snuggling on the beach. I was tidying up around my chair and lifted up my garden shoe. There, lying on his back, all eight legs and antennae waving frantically, was a tiny earwig. My first instinct was the same as most folks first reaction would be. "Eeeuuuu! An earwig!" But that video had a profound impact on my sensibilities. I took a post-it note and lifted him up to see if he was hurt. He didn't seem to be. I actually felt sorry for him! He was struggling with all his might to turn himself over. A wave of love swept through my whole body. It shocked me. I couldn't believe that I actually felt compassion for an earwig! I carried him outside and set him down in some smooth river rocks. I then had to ask myself__do I have that same compassion for my fellow human beings? The truth is that, no, I don't. That revelation is a shock, too, but I know why. More on that subject later.

YOU KNOW it is happening already__. 2012

You know it is happening. Things should be harder to do, but in truth they are happening more easily. Tell the truth. The weather is rotten, prices are high, there is turmoil all over the world, but life is better at a profound phychological and spiritual level in each of our own individual worlds. We are not getting what we have been told to want. Nor are we wanting what we can't get. That's because we KNOW that those things will not make us happy. Our values have fundamentally changed. We cannot work up a good hate or resentment even if we try,no matter how mainstream media tries to convince us that murder, mayhem and poverty are right around the corner, waiting to get us.